Try to see the Big Picture

There is a push to work faster
The world is speeding up
And I need to be ready for something
I feel so unprepared

I haven't learned enough
opened up enough
The runes are still riddles
I want to hear You so much more clearly
I need to be certain

I've been pagan for 24 years and I still feel like a beginner
Maybe I am
It's taken all of this time to finally see You
To reach beyond pages of books

I feel like you are opening my heart up
It is pouring out of me as You pour yourself into it
Until I glow with your light
And do you simply wish to stoke my light hidden inside
The heat I had forgotten I had?
I'm still trying to fit the pieces together
Trying to understand where all of this is leading

I've been training for this
Haven't I?
Was it my will that propelled me in this direction
Or Your soft guiding hand?
How much of who I am comes from You?