Fear of Abandonment

And I remember asking You
If You were leaving
If You were going to ghost on me
And my chest hurt from grief
I am sorry I think of You
with human frailty
I am sorry it took me so long
To recognize You
I am sorry I have wounds
I can't seem to heal
I am sorry, I am not satisfied with my writing
Until I have cried at least once
And I am sorry if You get tired of me asking
If You love me
Because I've never felt full
or satisfied
I think I"m still bleeding
And I don't know how to fix it
Just say You won't leave
I'm trying
And sometimes I forget