Healing Ancestral Trauma

Ancestral work sometimes requires the work of a healer. But not everyone is up to this task. Some of us cannot let go of the trauma we have suffered to develop the openness and compassion to do this work.

But every once in a while along a line of descendants, someone is called to heal the wounds of a bloodline.

I have been thinking of this lately especially along the lines of violence, rape, and childbearing. I am the first woman in my bloodline to have access to contraception. I was sexually active for ten years before I chose to have a child with my husband, conceived because I wanted to, and then not have anymore children because I chose not to.  The first woman in my bloodline to be married to a man when marital rape is a crime in all 50 states.  Married to a man who respects me enough to take no for an answer.  I might be the first woman in my bloodline to not experience sexual violence, domestic violence. I survived emotional and psychological abuse with my ability to love myself intact.

I have been lucky, blessed, privileged, etc. in this lifetime so far.

The crimes of the past, the witch burnings/hangings, the rapes, the kidnappings, the murders, the dead babies and little children lost before they had even a name, weigh heavily on me. It's like I can feel their energy, the crying of the mothers.  It sometimes fuels my rage and my own grief.

Working with Freya is bringing a lot of this out. It has entered my dreams and my meditations. Even waking thoughts. It has made me kind of weird to other people who don't understand what's it's like to view the world while carrying the weight of this knowledge.  Sometimes I can put it down but it's been hard lately.  My glasswork gives me some rest from the echoes.

I'm pasting a few resources for this kind of work if others are interested in doing the same thing. I don't know if I am cut out for it and have expressed my doubts to Freya in my meditations. She seems to think I'll be able to make a dent in this pain that I've inherited.  I guess we shall see.

https://shamanicanimism.com/crazy-witch-soul-retrieval-for-ancestral-trauma/

https://www.amazon.com/Ancestral-Medicine-Rituals-Personal-Healing/dp/1591432693/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1524758830&sr=8-1&keywords=ancestral+medicine

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-me-in-we/201205/how-trauma-is-carried-across-generations