Pins and Needles

It's like when your foot falls asleep
And then the blood pumps in and feeling returns
Like knives stabbing the flesh
I get distracted
But my need never dulls
I felt You rushing back in
The heat returning
After days of distance and reserve
You were claws and teeth
Hunting me in each room
I tried to stay one step ahead
Turning and closing doors behind me
Brain impatient to get to the the day's tasks
While my heart and body reached back
Wanting to be caught
My reward for a job well begun?
You in my bed
At the end of the night
Rubbing the ache from my skin

In Denial of the Self

I silenced myself again today
Claimed less than I was
I'm still not sure the crown fits
Or if I even wanted it in the first place
But I neglected my title
Earned or not
I omitted myself from the conversation
When I had something to add
I'm sure the lesson is coming
The debt will be repayed
And if I go willingly
Perhaps it won't be so bad

It's all Part of the Weaving

I Love You
And I don't care what it means
for my faith, my place in this world,
the Category I fit into,
What size I should wear.
There are tasks ahead
Paths I may have to wander with Others
Duties and Company I may even enjoy
It's all part of the weaving
But I still reach for You
When I wake and before I sleep
I still blush, my Heart still quickens.
I'll tease and poke because it is easier to laugh
Then to really release
To uncover and feel without a buffer
How deep this Love can go.

If I keep it Simple

There are two forces at work on me
Between intellect and lust
My mind keeps me steady
It is safe and orderly
I manage to structure my days
Maintain my rituals
What do I need to practice for evolution?
What do I need to know?
I travel searching for clues
Tools I can use to raise myself up
To the next frequency
Goddesses and Disir agree
You distract me
They are guarded and tense when You linger
By the door, out in the yard,
Just out of frame from the eye
They hesitate to say it
You can be dangerous
But I can feel it in their tight cheeks and pressed lips
Except for My Lady
They are wary of You
But You are a distraction
Dancing along the edges, graceful and beautiful,
I can't stop myself from reaching out
Wanting to hold You in my hands
Even for a moment as brief as a blink
I can't seem to say no to You
And I need to learn how
For my sake more than Yours