So here is a mind blowing realization I had in the shower today.
I've been hearing the voices of deities much more than I have in years. I was numb and closed off for more than a decade due to trauma and life's stress. I lost touch with spirituality for a long time. But funny how when your leg goes numb, when the blood rushes back in, the pinprick feeling is painful and fierce.
I've been feeling that on a spiritual level lately. And the gods I love have been telling me that They've been around me for a long time. It has just started occurring to me how long that has been.
I have been told repeatedly by teachers and other people I have had intellectual connections to, that my mind works in weird ways. I have a tendency to be able to find connections that even scholars miss. I did a research English Theory paper in which I compared two pieces that apparently no one had ever done before. I asked my prof about it because I couldn't find resources for comparing the two, and he basically told me in all his years that he had never seen anyone connect the two. I was the first. And as a note, I got an A on the paper.
There are other experiences like this during my teaching and English Lit degree course work and Master's work. But I'll leave that as it may be.
So I'm in the shower today and I'm meditating on the kenning I use for Sigyn: Priestess at the Cauldron, and Her more well-known one Incantation Fetter.
And I'm thinking about how if we use the Cave Story with Loki and Sigyn as an allegory instead of a literal events, it takes on a whole new light. Very simply, we have a God of Fire held fast to three stones. This is like the sacred fire with a tripod over it. And on this tripod we have a cauldron, or Sigyn's bowl. The poison of the snake that drips into it could be "Goddess Goo" or distilled and pure energy of the cosmos. In the story it is represented a poison, but poisonous potions in small doses can also be curative. Sigyn, is then the Priestess who stirs the brew, chanting or canting over it to Manifest some magickal transformation. Alchemy!
But here is where it gets mind blowing and has me kinda reeling.
When I was in school my senior year, I took a creative writing class with one of my favorite teachers. She had been teaching a long time. I actually was in the same grade as her son at the time. So, she was showing us a Rorschach image and asking us to write down what we see. I initially wrote that I saw a bug but then I dismissed that. Everyone sees insects in these things. So I looked again. When my turn came to tell her, I said I saw what looked like a cauldron with flames around the sides, three swords in the cauldron and a wizard or witch behind it. Her eyes about popped out of her head. She said in her decades of teaching, using the same ink blot, she had never heard anyone say anything remotely like that.
And today I thought, what if that was Sigyn's influence at the time and She has been with me or calling me all this time?
Holy Crap
