Last week I started work on one family line. I did a meditation to look for guides along my mother's mothers ancestry.
The line looked like a river and I felt like I was walking ankle deep in cool water as I walked down the line of ancestors. I looked at the different branches that joined the main river and sometimes saw what looked like movie snippets on a projector screen. Some domestic, war, etc. At around 2000 years ago I met a woman who identified herself as Siobhan. Freya steered me away saying she was still too troubled.
Further down the line, around 5000 years ago I met a woman, who at first felt like a man. It confused me since I didn't want to work with patriarchs yet. She was dark with green eyes and dressed in red, green, and white with lots of layers. I got the impression she was from eastern Europe, perhaps Balkan or further east. The work Peruvian came to mind but that didn't make sense since I didn't feel like I was in Peru and I don't have any genetic connections to that area of the world.
She gave me the name Cy. That is what I have been calling her. In looking up the name it kinda made sense. Cy is actually a male name, or nickname for boys with certain names line Cyrano. I realized this person may have been transgender or third sex. At that time in the world someone who was non-binary gender would have been perceived as magickal and would have been a spirit worker.
In another meditation I spent some time with her and asked about her living situation. She showed me a mud and thatch hut where she lived with other women. I asked about her mother's people and she pointed into the distance. She was living outside of the main community. I didn't ask if that was by choice or if she was shunned because of her gender identity. But I didn't feel any anger or resentment. She just calmly showed me what I wanted to know.
We walked the river of my ancestral lines and the line looked blue and kind of glowing mostly. She showed me places that had a red glow to them, dark and angry dots. She said we would work on those areas next time.
Today the meditation I had was to work on those spots. I have been galdring Uruz for healing my heart chakra. I have had some issues with it being too open and vulnerable lately. I traveled down the ancestral line to Cy and she walked me back up the lines from her time to more recent ancestors. She would stop along the way and use Uruz to heal the hearts of those at the different red spots. Her ancestors who were also whole would stay behind with the different angry spots and continue to heal as we walked forward along the line.
When I came to Siobhan I had this urge to hug her and Cy pulled me back. She is not well enough. I think she might have hurt me, even unintentionally, and Cy was protecting me. Again with my heart chakra being too open, having a guide is essential. We finally arrived at the present and Cy spend a moment putting healing energy into my own heart. I felt this warm and loving energy wash over me and started crying. I felt just for a brief moment things start to settle into place and start to feel whole and good. Like something shifted.
Cy let me hug her and I asked her to continue the healing even as I was not in meditation all the time. She told me to check in with her over the next few days to measure things. I'm sure things will be well. I felt such a good feeling after that session and I hope it will only continue.
I have no idea how this will manifest in myself or my daughter. I hope good things will flow from it.
This afternoon I baked cookies and grilled some burgers. I have a large ancestral rock that I have dedicated in the garden for ancestral offerings. I took my daughter with me to leave out offerings for them this evening. She is taking to this pagan thing so quickly and easily. I love it.
My next task after completing this line of healing is to move to my mother's fathers line.
